90 Day Challenge--step one

Step one—know where you are.

Life has gotten me so very busy that I do not recognize this person in the mirror.  Who is she and what is she wearing?!  I don’t know who this stranger is.  Internally we are one, but the way I feel is not reflected in her face (or her thighs for that matter).  

The Parham’s say the first step in this journey is ‘recognizing where you are”.  To many of my closest friends and family this is hilarious.  I am forever lost; I have no sense of direction what-so-ever.  This God-given ‘homing ability’ has been lost to me.  I often tell people that I am unable to find my way to the bathroom without the light being on.  Even in our tiny home town.  My GPS system has always been my Tim-Tim.  This little gem guided me around long before the whole Tom-Tom thing came about.

Where am I?  Where are you?  What Do I want from this journey?  To feel better, to be better?  To look better?  Why not, why not want it all?  I am worthy, without a doubt.  Thankfully I am not afflicted with self-loathing that often comes with weight gain.  My self-worth has never been tangled with numbers, I was raised that way. 

So . . .where am I.  I am here, right at the start of this journey.  It is just that a side road taken as I head towards whatever destination I choose.  Thankfully I have several companions on this trip, my dear sweet husband and our children.  Wherever this road leads, regardless of the outcome they will be there.  So, I am right where I need to be, and right where I want to be.